The Mommy Reset Button

I love being a mommy.

I would not trade my days with the kids for anything.

I feel as though I was meant to be a mommy and I find amazing satisfaction in striving to be the best Mommy possible.

Most of the time.

Like, maybe 85% of the time.

But some days.

Dude.

I'm tired. I'm cranky. I have zero patience.

I do not feel like being a good mom, or that am one.

And you know, some days, I'd really rather be at some office working an 8-5, any office that would supply me with abundant adult interaction, than to be a stay at home mom.

I use to feel incredible guilt, like the kind that consumes your whole body and makes you nauseous, for having even a sliver of the above feelings.

I would brush them off just as soon as they landed in my head.

Then I would thank the Lord for my kids and feel bad for having any sort of negative feelings about being with them.

Until one day I realized that thinking any of those things did not make me love my two beautiful babies less. It didn't make me ungrateful for being their Mommy or unequipped to do a great job. These thoughts make me human. I think having embraced that very thought has actually made me a better Mom.

Sometime you just need to hit the reset button.

Today is an example of this.

I found myself increasingly short with both of the kids, feeling exhausted, and even a bit overwhelmed.

Thankfully, my mom invited them over to spend the night.

I kissed them good bye, checked my guilt and the door, and now am enjoying a little quiet time until my Hubby gets home and we have a little date night.

And then.

In the morning, Daniel and I will go pick up our love bugs and have a funfilled family day.

And...

I'm looking forward to it.

Get this...

I've been with out the two sprouts for about two and half hours, and I already feel rejuvenated. I'm already missing them a bit.

When I think of London, I think of her sweet giggles and spunky little spirit. Early today I would have said those awful shrills and sassy know it all attitude.

And Dylan, I'm thinking of his creative little mind and what a genius he is.

Earlier today I would have said the way he wiil.not.ever.stop.wanting.to.show.me.his.new."scripts".EVER.

See!

Amazing.

Here's to a quiet and relaxing night and then a fun filled day with the babies tomorrow!

And here's to knowing its okay to need a little time to yourself and STILL being a good Mommy!

Happy Weekend, Ya'll!